We go into the depths of the underworld to seek answers to complicated questions, not just recreation. Kindness. Love. We only have one life. We must seek kindness. And acceptance. 3:44 am Our annual summer getaway was originally inspired by a mushroom trip. Let’s not pretend it was anything other than a trip creating new…
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Complicated
Sex, life, death, marriage, kids, community, duty. The whole thing is so complicated. Perhaps this is why we need direction, purpose. – Vietnam, unedited
Read moreMen, and the West
The West is pushing hard for men to be more feminine. Cool. But other countries (our enemies) that look to devour us, are not feminine. They are not fair, equitable, beautiful, and complicated. They are masculine. Fierce. Dominating. Looking to devour its prey. Let’s not forget. For centuries, men were the protectors of women and…
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The father, the son, and the holy ghost??? Was Rodennberry sending a message? These realities exist. – Vietnam, unedited
Read moreI’m the leader in so many instances
Am I, I am. Finding compliance to validate my disorders. Compliance -> tribe of like-minded, disordered people… Am I the ring leader of the disorder, or the seeker and seer of truth? We have only one life to live. 12:57 am Truth or my truth? Reality, or my desired reality? 12:58 am – Vietnam, unedited
Read moreBrain readings, pt 2
Look into: [ ] Receptor Modulation [ ] Receptor up and down Regulation [ ] Trigger -> Behavior -> Reward [ ] Dependent Origination, the Bhudha [ ] Ruminate vs perseverate – activating Default node network Part 1 – Vietnam
Read moreCoincidences (and droogs)
My life is filled with coincidences. Time slowing down. This is what I need. Chronos. Katana Zero. Slow down time. This is. Is it? I see to be awake. How can I test myself? 12:21 am No. I can’t be rational. My risk level is off the charts. I seem, and feel like in control….
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Mastering reality. Mastering reality. Mastering reality. Mastering reality. Bending reality. Bending reality. Bending reality. Bending reality. Making reality. Making reality. Making reality. Making reality. The Grand Ho Tram Strip Ven Biển, Phước Thuận, Xuyên Mộc, Bà Rịa – Vũng Tàu, Vietnam Dec 25, 2019, 11:58 PM,
Read moreThe more I consume
A break is needed. The more I consume, the emptier I feel. Food. Drugs. Alcohol. Women. Eat, eat, eat. Emptiness. Refrain is needed. I’m hollowing out. – Vietnam
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