Notes to myself

The Way

بِسْمِ ٱللهِ ٱلرَّحْمَٰنِ ٱلرَّحِيْمِ, Bismillah al-Rahman al-Rahim If you believe that the Universe, God, has chosen to bless you with power and influence, you must conclude that you have a duty to honour what you’ve been given. There’s a simple question: What does God want of you? That is the Way.

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Broken People

Broken People

Why are so many men and women broken? This is so very hard for me to understand. It’s especially hard to understand and empathize with people who lived and live privileged lives, complaining over trivial matters – meanwhile, we have heroes and heroines amongst us who have endured unimaginable hardships, and continue to battle new…

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Fear Drove Me

I didn’t have to be fearful or anxious. I didn’t have to punish myself, this unnecessary suffering, which only added weight, anchoring me to sadness and despair. I played the game on hard, and I didn’t know I had a choice to make it easy. In moments of blissful enlightenment, I realize how unnecessary it…

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Cowards just behave.

Cowards don’t recognize they are cowards. They just behave. As a snake does not identify as a snake, but simply behaves, so does a coward behave cowardly leaving a trail of fuckery, without truly identifying and accepting and acknowledging. Are you able to see the differences in animals?

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Discipline is hard, sans a schedule.

Discipline is so hard to have, especially when a schedule does not exist. I am enjoying the break from my normal disciplined life, for the most part. However, my inability to control my eating is cause for concern.  What haven’t you done in a long time? Meditate bread in the middle of the day. Walk…

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Speed and Trajectory

I have plenty of people in my community who I’ve mentored. Some have been in the country for only 4-5 years and are miles ahead of you. Why?Are they smarter or better than you? No.They’re simply operating on a different OS. You’re not going to get from here to there downloading mental apps. You need…

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Serious Reset

Over my life, my days, where I put my energy.  I need a serious serious reset.  Nobody knows the pressures of a CEO. How much I’m stretched. How many different things are pulling me in different directions in a single hour, in a single moment? At the end of the day, I have completed nothing. …

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What is a perfect week?

DIETS Seven days of eating healthy. Lunch provides high protein, chicken breast, tuna, or boiled eggs. Super healthy grain bread and perhaps an avocado for extra fat. Dinners begin no later than 6 pm, starting with a large salad, followed by lean meat and a very small portion of healthy carbs.  WORKOUTS Strong, stable, and…

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Executive Mentor

My company doesn’t need me doing 75% of the things I currently do.  What my company needs is for me to grow to the next level of leadership.  To do that most effectively and speedily, I need to surround myself with leaders I can respect, admire, look up to, and follow.  I need to do…

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You, The Who?

Who are You? Who are you most pissed off at? You, the Weak.You, the Pathetic.You, the Mediocre. Who are you? You, the Conqueror.You, the Focused.You, the Disciplined. Ay You! The weak, pathetic, and mediocre! Whose love do you crave?Whose judgement do you fear?Who is the master you serve?! The love of Self, the Focused!The judgement…

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Flashiness and Slickness

The goal is to solve the problem, not to be sexy or flashy or slick. If solving the problem requires it, then so be it. But if it doesn’t, then don’t make it your priority. What is the problem? What is the most effective and efficient way to solve the problem? What is the problem…

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Focus

Focus. The word I avoid looking at. It’s my Achilles Heel. I can do anything, but only if I focus. My days and weeks get devoured by unfocused activities. Not nearly enough water and sun are devoted to my seeds of greatness. Opportunities floundered. This is the thing I must master. Relentless, simplified: focus.  (from…

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My issue with your enlightenment:

So you did (another) hero dose of psychedelics. 👍👍👍 Good for you, buddy.  And how long will you hold on to your newfound enlightenment before you need another dose? As if the wise sages in the past needed deprivation tanks, shamans, energy healing, micro and macro dosing.  For fucks sakes. Get over yourself.  Grow up. Mature. …

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What You Signal

In Life There are unintentional signs you signal to others.When it is unintentional, you can bet that it’s not to your advantage.For oponents who can read the signals and signs, it’s similar to them reading you like a simple book. A book on how to influence you. For the kind in heart, this makes no…

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On Compliance

To multiply yourself, you need a team that complies. Compliance requires you to establish a system with checks and balances, along with a reporting mechanism. Assess compliance and improve the system based on the evaluated performance. This cycle (create > evaluate > iterate) continues. With each cycle, the goal is to achieve higher compliance. Ultimately,…

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Pet Peeve: Out-of-Touch Leaders

You know one of my pet peeves? Something that really pisses me off? When people in positions of authority and power become disconnected from the community they serve, they become clueless about the feelings of the ordinary person.  This happens in government. We see it a lot lately in Canadian politics. It also occurs in…

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Do Epic Things

Epicness, not for this: It’s basic to think that doing some epic shit is a great way to grab attention and increase standing in your social hierarchy. This true. Doing epic shit can give you the fame and admiration your weak little soul may yearn. And with one step in this direction, you’ll have started…

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Algorithmic Addiction (pt 2)

Just a little. Only a couple minutes.  Telltale signs of addiction.  When you’re on autopilot. When your hands and feet move effortlessly, gracefully, into the fire you know will burn.  How little control we have when our controls get stuck on autopilot.  Who amongst us is above addiction? Who amongst us above the highly trained…

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How to Write

1. Write. Write jibberish. Write stupidity. Write your feelings. Then, write why your feelings are dumb. Write why you love someone. Then, write all the things you hate about someone. Write why liberals are stupid. Then, write why conservatives are dumb. Write about racism, prejudice, and social justice. Then, write why you can’t stand certain…

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Military Hat 🪖

When I’m wearing my military general hat, my Captain’s hat… I love it. I love the clarity.I love the absolution.Structure.Precision.Focus.Pointed and with purpose. Yes, this is an extreme version of me. And while I wear this hat and live through this uniform, I am intense. Those who don’t know me, understandably mistake me for being…

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Wants, and other questions

What don’t you want? This is equally, if not more important, than what you want.  But be careful not to not-want things that are good for you. For example, suffering.  And what about those you love? What do they (think they) want? In what domains and categories are you willing to help others achieve their…

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A young lady’s charm.

At some point in a young lady’s childhood, she learns that she can get far using her charm, her wit and her beauty. There comes a point in her adult life when her charm, wit, and beauty do not suffice. What else does she have to offer? She better have the grit. The might, discipline,…

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New day. New life.

Every morning is an opportunity for a new life. This gets forgotten, often, especially when the night ends in drink and smoke. This is karma. Waking up in debt for decisions of yesterday. Not careful; this can replicate in weeks, months, and years, setting you so far back that no time available to you is…

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The Descent of a Soul: A Journey Through Temptation and Reflection

In many ways, bad ways, I have devolved. Weaknesses have run amok. Coasting. Eating away the good fortune created yesterday.Stealing goodwill from tomorrow.  Where is my soul? Like being trapped by a black hole. Being pulled. I see the disasters, and rather than change trajectory, rather than fly back the opposite way, I flow like the river into…

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Expectations for leaders

Want more money?Want to think and perform like a leader?What is your current thinking like?What is your current behaviour like? How fragile are you?How much of your thoughts and actions are unchecked? Are you easily disturbed?Do you easily break? Would you follow someone like you? What are the qualities you believe a leader should exhibit? How…

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Doing well.

We have a responsibility to build a business that not only supports but goes above the basics. Mother birds “In measuring out rewards, wise rulers act like mother birds. While seeing into every corner; they are unobtrusive. While protecting the people, they do not control them.“ excerpt from Chapter 10, Tao Te Ching

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LOL. Your Looping.

Lol. You’re looping.  Same shit, every week.  You need to be yourself. Your level of intensity. But different from before.  Yes, you can live with your people. But more important, you must lead them.  First, you must lead yourself.  What a joke. You’re cycling. Looping. Week after week.  What are your expectations?  You love _______….

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Stop Judging

Stop judging. Stop complaining. Stop judging. Stop complaining. Stop judging. Stop complaining. Winners find solutions. Losers complain. Be a winner. The enlightened accept and love. The unconscious complain. Be enlightened. Stop judging. Stop complaining. People are attracted to the light. Be enlightened. People feel weighted by your complaints. Stop complaining. Judgemental people are weak. Those…

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The Game

I am obsessed with the Game.  I love the Game.  I prefer playing the Game more than any other activity.  I love obsessing over the Game, more than thinking about anything else.  What is the Game? People call it different things. People keep track of the score in their own, infinitely unique way. Success is…

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Be a white blood cell

If you had an option, to be a healthy white blood cell or cancer, you would pick healthy. The same goes for healthy vs dying or decaying. The answer is clear. The behaviour is simple: focus on serving, fixing, and building. That’s what healthy cells do. Doesn’t matter how you feel or what you think,…

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What ruins a community

Having qualms about a member of your community, sharing your qualms with others, but not having the guts to talk to the person directly. This plants seeds of resentment in your own heart, and seeds of doubt and dislike in the hearts of the listener. Some of those doubts and disenchantment are of the person…

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A few notes from Subtle Art of Not Giving a F

What is the value that you hold so dear? What is the (made up) metric that you measure the progress towards that value? Problems may be inevitable, but their meanings don’t need to be. Our values determine the metrics by which we measure others and ourselves. If you want to change how you see your…

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Letting go of people

There is a lack of talent. This is great news for us. Email to myself: Dec 25, 2021, 9:13 AM Why? Whatever the challenge, if it’s market, social, industry, or whatever challenge that other orgs and people face as well, not isolated to PD or a PD member… This is great news. Why?

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Two types of knowledge

When reading and studying, consider, there are two types of knowledge. OS Upgrades App Downloads Sure, sometimes you need to download an app in your brain. Some new technique, skill, or process. But to see real massive strides forward, go for books and knowledge that upgrade your OS. Just like in real life, most Apps…

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Business as usual

You’re all good. We’re all good. From your core to the gross warm yellow liquid that gets flushed out. We’re absolutely perfect through and through. Business, however, requires not perfection, but specificity. It’s in these specificities that we sometimes are trapped in, and sometimes need releasing.

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Getting out of a funk in 2021 Q4

Notes taken whilst listening to a Queen. Fri, Oct 29, 2021, 10:21 PM I want to feel understood and understood. Fri, Oct 29, 2021, 10:23 PM I don’t need other people to understand me, of I’m willing to understand myself. Fri, Oct 29, 2021, 10:25 PM To ___: 1. I’m so glad I talked with…

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Happenings

9:31 am // A few questions participants should ask. How do you define attack? How do you define defence? What is the relationship between claiming what is and asking what is? How do you stop the spread of suffering? What behaviours amplify and spread suffering? What is Truth if two or more parties witnessing an…

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Stop

Essentialism Stop trying to help everyone. Help only ten that will help ten. Too many projects on the go. We can only close so many projects at the same time. Initiatives: Beachhead Firing too many cannons in too many directions. I don’t want to be like N____l S_____y. Spread too thin. Behaving erratically. I must…

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Intense few weeks

Below are my unfiltered thoughts to myself. Thought I’d share. I’m either a commander, a captain, a ruler, or a commando. When I am a commando, everything seems to be too slow, an obstacle to overcome, an enemy to slice. Nothing is good enough. Things are not good enough. People are not good enough. I…

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Being your best

Get the best out of you. Would you like to: strive to be your best? The majority of people will never once feel the euphoria of being at one’s best. This is not because of any lack of desire. It is that to be at your best, you require an ideal environment and strong systems….

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Don’t be an “HNR”

Q: What is an HNR? A: Human Network Router Q: What does that mean? A: It means you’re literally moving information from one place to another. You cease to be creative. You are reactionary. Your time is mostly spent in emails, instant messaging apps, and social media. Don’t. Be a person. Live life.

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